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2011 23歲 即將落幕

迎接的是2012 24歲

祝大家新年快樂 祝我生辰快樂

今日 我下了個決定 就是放棄 和 改變

我不曾放棄不屬於我的 但那該如何迎接新的

船總有靠岸

一些人和事 拜拜

原諒

原諒你

放縱你

提前離座

考慮了許久

知道說出來並不是好事

我舉步向前跨越 知道這並不是結局

想讓你品嚐人生的喜怒哀樂 不要錯過

情傷必流血 留下傷疤 但並不會再讓你感覺痛躺在血泊中果然痛快

如果你在看著 請你看著自己

這是不是你要的結局 如果是

請繼續

原諒我

變態

如你所说

我承認自己變態

變態是我表現想要佔有的動作

直接了當的個性讓人模糊了我

我該如何告訴你 我不是你面前的我

面对无法实现的事 真的做不了什麼

最近一連竄的怪事發生 不如意的事多得很

我順其自然地面對 因為我就是這樣的我

不曾低頭 從來沒有

從前的故事也將繼續

避風港 到底是什麼？

僵硬

塞車

僵硬了 麻木了

我不害怕

每個身邊的人總會害怕

害怕孤單
害怕黑暗
害怕忽略
害怕出錯
害怕死亡

我想說的 就是不要害怕

害怕會引誘可怕的結果
害怕最終就會倒塌

抬起胸膛 告訴自己
甚麼是害怕 那是人的愚蠢反應
象徵著墮落

呵呵

我一直也没有忘记

当初的那一个

为了梦想勇敢不怕风雨的那个我

走到了现在也总算有个闭幕

幕后的我虽伤痕类类但不足挂齿

别人想什么和自己想么必然冲突

抱负我有太多抱负
背负我已太多背负

今天我回来这里
证明我最近有点儿不太妥

曾经跟朋友手执石头高举
说出了梦想说好了抱负
将石头掷出去石头落地的一声
便是起行向梦想进发之时

那一声到现在我有一直的努力
我并没有放弃也排除了万难来到这里

但来到这里后发觉排除了万难后
却有万万难和万万万难

我并没有惊慌只感到无助
我并没有退一步只疑惑怎可以进一步
我并没有想过离开但是我也从没有认真想过要留多久

今天我说过我给了自己一个限期
那一个限期不是一个死期
而是找另一个方法再去追寻我自己要的胜利
不抱怨即是目的

回去吧 和家人见面
回去吧 没有留恋
回去吧 没有对错
回去吧 你将有一个全新的人生体验

她

發現從沒看見的 內在美

看見最真實的 笑容

感覺不一樣的 愛待

感受最真誠的 擁抱

容納永恆的 心

我會因你而摧毀

Can I fade in your arms?

Can I get lost in your eyes?

'Cause when I'm with you

I just melt away

Can I render you still?

Freeze this moment in time?

'Cause when I see you

I just melt away

Can I stay close to you

Until the river runs dry?

'Cause when you're heart is by mine

I just melt away

尘埃

今天 我翻开盒子 里边装的是记忆

重播从前的画面 总觉得自己好傻

我笑了一下

把盒子关了起来 嘴里哼着抛物线

人们虚假又造作 总爱得不温不火

我一直也没有忘记 当初的那个我们

是你也好 是他也好

众目睽睽 看着我们的笑话

我说 我们自己创造自己的故事 记事本

别人想看也没那么容易

爱与不爱 只在一线之差

过去的 赢了我的微笑

FW: Regrets of the Dying

Regrets of the Dying

For many years I worked in palliative care.  My patients were those who had gone home to die.  Some incredibly special times were shared.  I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality.  I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth.  Some changes were phenomenal.  Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance.  Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again.  

Here are the most common five:

1.  I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all.  When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled.  Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way.  From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late.  Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.

2.  I wish I didn't work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed.  They missed their children youth and their partner's companionship.  Women also spoke of this regret.  But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners.  All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do.  And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3.  I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others.  As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming.  Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others.  However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level.  Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life.  Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down.  Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years.  There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved.  Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip.  But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away.  People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible.  But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them.  They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task.  It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end.  That is all that remains in the final weeks - love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one.  Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice.  They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits.  The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives.  Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content.  When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind.  How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice.  It is your life.  

Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly.  

Choose happiness.

伤害

就算被伤害得多深 也不足以挂齿

就算在事业 感情 生活等

面对挫折才会成长 这是不变的事实

如果说一点点伤害就哭天喊地 试着要别人关心你 抑或糟蹋别人 不去自觉

那你学到了什么

人类的本能来就是无限度 别把自己放在同一个角落

每隔一年 转换一个尖角

你会看到什么

多得是

生日快乐

就这样 我过完了我人生的22年

踏入成年期 思想也必须更踏实 不再执着于某些事

祝我生日快乐

恨

夜深人静，人去楼空

这一刻 让我感性许多

感觉这一切都不是我想要的结果

人类也许贪婪 现实也许残酷

许多事情都是以闭上瞳孔去面对

想要结束 但有多不舍

世界上 真正了解你的有几个

我想 没有

打开心房 有谁愿意进入 如果你肯 但你也许会看到灰色的地带

只有自己才会完全地取笑

为何 因为你充满了疑惑 空虚

放下心 好好爱 好好生活

恨你 是永远的

感激

感激你们 爱或恨我

这些都是金钱换不回来的

2011年 往目标宗旨也许会更接近

但也别忘了告诉自己 我会更爱自己

1. 调整身体吧！使用过度就是武力。

2. 身体充电的方法有两种。一种是透过休息来自动充电；还有一种是好好地吃饭来消除身体的疲劳。灵和精神也是如此。

3. （产生力量的方法）必须跟对方产生施与受的授受关系，才会按照思考的方向产生力量，像电流一样。

4. 藉由肉体施与受以及藉由内心施与受，人是以这种相对性授受关系的法则存在的。所有东西也是如此。

5. 地球也为了存在，以本身的力量和相对的力量持续自转和公转，不停息地运转。

6. 钟摆也一样，依照「启动就摇摆」的法则，持续地左右摆动与运作来完成任务。人也必须在一旁透过言语和行动来摇动他、触动他，他才会运作。

1. Control/take care of your body well. Doing too much is force.

2. There are two ways to recharge the body. One is to make it recharge automatically by resting. Another is to recharge the body by eating well and actively relaxing the body. The same is true for the spirit and mind also.

3. (The way to generate power) A give-and-take relationship in which you give-and-take with a partner must exist. Then power will be generated like electricity according to the direction of their thinking.

4. People exist through the principle of give-and-take relationship in which they give-and-take through the body and give-and-take through the mind. All matter exists that way too.

5. The earth also spins and orbits by its own power and by the power of its partner and moves without stopping in order to exist.

6. A clock’s pendulum does its job by continually swinging from side to side once it is moved. People too: they must be shaken and touched with words and action by people around them. Then they will operate.